5 Miscarriages in One Year

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Christmas 2017...
Get my Beta HCG draws, never any numbers over 23.  I find out Christmas Eve that I'm miscarrying.  Pregnancy resolves naturally.

Keep Trying...

4 failed months of trying.  Trying so damn hard my marriage is struggling because of it.  

May 2018...
We head to the Bahamas to find out while we're there, that we're pregnant again!
Get home to do my Beta HCG Draws.  Almost identical situation to my previous pregnancy.  Never any numbers over 24.  Another Miscarriage... this time I don't know if I can try again...

August 2018...
We are in Colorado on vacation and I start feeling really terrible.  There's no way I'm pregnant because I just had my period, but I'm bleeding again?  I go take a test.  Positive.  WHAT?  I end up spending that night in the ER in fear of an ectopic pregnancy.  Luckily, it resolved on its own.  Positive pregnancy test are now daunting.  I almost want them to be negative as much as I want them to be positive.

At this point I've had ENOUGH.  I love my OBGYN and she ran all of the right tests. All of the tests that said NOTHING was wrong with me.  But I can't keep going on without talking to a specialist so I  make an appointment with an infertility doctor.  I have my first appointment in September.  Let the testing begin.  From needles, to procedures, to appointments, I had it all done.  They tested for everything and what was my diagnosis?  UNEXPLAINED MULTIPLE RECURRENT LOSS.  What a drag.

October 2018...
Another positive test.  No intervention has been done yet because I'm still in the midst of testing.  I'm just praying that this one sticks.  Unfortunately, it doesn't.  

Christmas 2018...
Since I have no glaring issues coming up in my testing we decide we're going to try three medicated cycles and if that doesn't work then we are going to try IVF.  We find out we're pregnant!
 
Such faint lines, but it's a positive!

This pregnancy was a rollercoaster.  My levels were soooo low but they were doubling so we were hopeful.  I started medication.  I thought that would make it work!  I was so hopeful.  Surely, I wouldn't miscarry AGAIN at Christmas.  We were traveling so I was trying to find hospital labs to get my blood drawn over the holidays. What a disaster.  Although still my numbers are doubling so I get to celebrate on Christmas day that we're pregnant and our numbers look good!  December 28.. I get the phone call... your numbers are dropping expect to start bleeding.  

That's IT.  I am DONE trying on my own.  I have risked my marriage to force my husband to try on certain days every month for a solid year only to miscarry 5 times in a row.  It's time to start IVF.

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